While being on the road of transformation and enlightenment, many issues appear in my councious awareness.
Some of them as jealousy, anger and impatience are few out of the obvious ones and are easier to transform with Emotional and Spiritual Intelligence tools. But sexuality was not that obvious and it took years of meditation and compassion to bring it to the foreground.
My awareness is that at some point in this life or other lives I adopted that:
1. when a woman is having sex, especially when she is a mother, it is dirty and inappropriate;
2. Sex is for a man to satisfy his animal instincts;
3. Sexuality is shameful side of life that everybody is hiding, and pretending that it does not exist.
The way I dealt with it:
1. First I accepted my sexual organs (remainjng parts of my sexual organs since I had hysterectomy)
as part of me and not as a foreign object that I hate.
2. I meditated on integrating and harmonizing my body with Universal love.
As a Heart Intelligence Coach I recommend to work with an issue like that without denying, supressing or acting out in order to mask it. Hiring a coach it is the best gift you can give to yourself.